I'm just me and no more

Haven't done crosshatching since forever. Still love the pencil as much as I love my tablet.
Inspired by Bad Apple, that song's stuck in my head.

Somehow, I'm not very satisfied with this. Might upload a refined version later, when I find the motivation to continue editing.

Tools: Pencil, SAI, Photoshop.
Approx 10 hours.

夢見てる？　なにも見てない？　語るも無駄な　自分の言葉
悲しむなんて　疲れるだけよ　何も感じず　過ごせばいいの
Am I dreaming? Or seeing nothing? My words are useless even if I speak.
I'm just tired of being sad, I should go on without feeling anything.

こんな自分に　未来はあるの？　こんな世界に　私はいるの？
今切ないの？　今悲しいの？　自分の事も　わからないまま
Is there a future for someone like me? Will I still exist in a world like this?
Is this painful? Is it sad? Not even knowing myself.